i AM special

Deep down inside, I always knew I'm special.

hmmmm. no no nO! don't try to argue with me..

... 'coz if i ain't special, please explain to me how i got this:


What's this????




It's a magical box, containing something really special.



From???






... From Chloeeeeeee...


I'm told that (err.. actually i told myself that..) only special people have special friends.
And only special people receive special birthday gifts (albeit belated) from special friends.


And usually, special gifts come in boxes...
The birthday cake that kar baked for me came in a box.
The bodycare set that shannnn gave me came in a box too.
The necklace that celene gave me also came in a box.
yeappp.. to make a gift really special, hide it in a box!




oh no... my apologies.
You gotta be really special to be able to take a peek inside the box.


And you gotta be special to be able to be on a magazine with a special friend!




And...... you can only receive a special fax, if you're special.




Thanks Chloeeee!!! *muacks*

oh, and just wanna let you know, i was touched to tears when i looked at what you've done for me. But, you know, the strong wind at the beach, dried my tears instantly, before you could see them stream down my face..


And i really wanna thank you for making me realise the true meaning of Being Bestfriends.

I had been wondering what Bestfriend really means for a long time.
Are bestfriends defined by the length of time they know each other?
Or the amount of time they spend together every week?
Or the kind of things they do together?
Or is it a mutual understanding of each other?
Or an unspoken care they have for each other?

Bestfriend.
Best.
Does that mean you can only have one bestfriend?

I realise being bestfriends do not mean you have to sign a contract with the person, to acknowledge the relationship.
You don't have to tell the whole world who your bestfriend is.
You don't have to spend all the time together.
You don't even have to know each other for decades.
All you need is the special bond that ties the two of you together.
And that special bond is what true friendship is all about.
Misunderstandings, jealousy, anger, and even hunger(!) could be easily overcome by that special bond.
You know what each other are thinking and saying, without further explanations.
And when you have nothing to say to each other, the silence doesn't hurt. You're simply enjoying the moment spent together.


I always thought i only have goodfriends, and not bestfriends.
But now i'm enlightened.
And i love all of you! =)



*opps. i realise i sound quite dumb in this entry. Like someone who thought he just found the existence of gravity, when Newton had already done so years ago. ok, i'm making myself sound dumber.. But i'm really happy to find out the true meaning to being bestfriends!!!


You can laugh at me, poke fun at me, tease me.
I don't care!
Because I'm SPECIAL!

I look Weird in Jackets

After much hassle and so much time wasted, i finally got my butt off the round-about of searching for a good new pretty denim jacket! Or any other jackets. Gosh. I actually took so many years to realise that. Be it a leather jacket, suede jacket, crocodile skin jacket, THEY DON'T SUIT ME AT ALL! Maybe it's because i'm short, or that my shoulders are too small (or mayb it's just the small boobs' fault), or simply because of my weird body proportion. Hmmm but then again, the denim jacket that my sis and i had years ago could fit me perfectly fine.. Or so i thought. OKAY.. Can i conclude that jacket designers suck nowadays?? Oh no, i can't. BECAUSE I think i'm the only one with such a prob. Sigh.. Thank goodness the off-white corduroy jacket that i currently have doesn't look too weird on me. But it's still quite big though. And i still have another denim 'blazer', which i haven't worn before! It's brand new with tag, hanging in my closet! And it's available for sale! Interested buyers please say something! Ask me for pics, measurements, ANYTHING!

Well. So what suits me?? My hollister shrug suits me perfectly fine. My white cardigan suits me fine too. My sis's cardigan also suits me. My victoria's secret sweater fits me fine too..
uh huh! I've decided that i'm a cardigan/sweater person!
and Guess WHAT??? I just found e perfect sweater today! It's way cool.. And so is the price. Hope it'll wait another 2weeks for me to get it off e shelf! yeeeeeeeeeaaaaap! I'll be back!!!

anyway, I thought cardigans are less expensive than denim, leather, suede jackets. BUT NO!!!! They are not at all!!! In fact, they are even more expensive! opps ok i take that back. leather jackets are really expensive! erm.. **Please note that i'm referring to good quality cardigans here. The prettily knitted woolen/cotton kind, and, well, the branded ones. Not the normal ones from those far east shops. Call me materialistic, or brand conscious. Who isn't?


Alright. To end off, let me tell you what a brilliant actor Takuya Kimura is.
Takuya Kimura is a charming, suave, great, attractive, though kinda short, brilliant actor!!

There was a Hello Kitty tea party, and i wasn't even invited to it!!! =(

i just saw it on tv.
i'm really upset now.
How can i not know about it?!?!!?
i'm like, the biggest hello kitty fan around, alright.
How can they leave me out???
i love Hello Kitty. i really do.

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I'm not buying that watch anymore.

erm... for this month, that is.
i'll consider it again next month. when it's pay day.
Opportunity costs for buying the watch: A new pair of pants, a skirt, some camis.
so that means for the rest of the month, i still have some extra cash to spare.
and it's the termbreak!!!
Besides catching up with school work, i need to shop!!!!
Retail therapy. That's a really great term used to justify shopaholics's needs to shop.
and i need it very badly!!!!!



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Bring me to Disneyland!!!

okay. i wanted to blog about this for quite some time. Since the night i watched wilber and ah ya in Hong Kong Disneyland.
yep, the new HK disneyland tempted me, no doubt. erm.. But i don't mean that i wanna go to the HK disneyland only. (it's the smallest in the world, and... Pardon me for stereotyping here: i think Chinese are spoilers. Definitely not the worst, of course. i don't wanna walk around and step on spits everywhere! HEY the Govt pple! i'm not making any racist remark here, don't put me in jail!!!)
But yea. it's still a cool place!!! Do you that mickey's hidden everywhere there?!?!?! even if you're not a mickey lover, i'm sure you'd be wowed by it.

Anyway, the disneyland hotel's damn cool!!!!
i wanna stay there!!!
oh my, is it everyone's wish to stay at disney hotel, at least once in a lifetime????
i know it's my sis's wish too...
and i'm glad i've been to the disneyland themepark before.

sighhh... This brings me back to one thing again: I MISS JAPAN!!!!!
When will i ever get to go there again?!?!?!
Gimme Japan. gimme japan. Gimme Japan!!!
and bring me, bring Me, Bring ME to Disneyland!!!

I'm finally getting a break!!!

hurray~!~!
SIX weeks of school are finally over...
and i've already had two of my mid-term tests. another two do not have any test. so that means i only have one more mid-term test to go. and WHEN is it??? 8th Oct! Hello~! That's TWO weeks after the term-break!! So what should i do during my break??? Sleep! Shop! Rot!

(erm Chloeee... When are we going to WWW???)

geeZ. anyway. Things are fine, for now. What the future holds? Nobody knows.
Hmmmm.. Shaun used to say, " Who knows what the future holds?" in a stupid tone, and i used to regard that as a silly statement of his. But right now, i'm really pondering over it. Hopefully, when i look back again years later, i would be able to tell myself, "I've made the right choice." Period.

i love oldies!

and staying at home... On a day when i'm supposed to be in school...!

Stop, and think about it

I don't know if i'm doing the right thing.
I don't know if this is what i want.
I don't know how things will turn out.
But I do know that I need to get the answer.
And you don't seemed to be against it.
Maybe by then, it wouldn't matter anymore?
Maybe we already knew it now.

I don't know how i'll go about doing this, but it has to be done.

Contradictions.

crap. I'm full of that.

What do I want?
Perhaps we're all sick and tired of these.
You're not doing anything, neither am i.
Just forget it. Just let it be.


Disappointment.

Another thing my life's full of.
I guess it's time to sit and review all events.
To think about what you really want.


Once again, i'm sorry to shout this out loud:
"Fairy Tales Do Not Exist!!!!"

(sux. i can't enlarge the font further. it'd be damn huge if i attmept to. but i'm sure you can feel the words vibrating against your eardrums now, yea.)



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HipHop was fUn!!!!
Can you do the bodywave???
Can you move to the beat???
Do you have the groove???
lol. No. No. No.



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i love the ..........s that separate what i wanna say.
Let me end off with another contradiction:

I'VE GOT DAIFUKU! =)

It's Green Tea Daifuku!! Fresh from Minamoto Kitchoan.
oh. actually i wanted the chocolate daifuku... but they don't come in sixes anymore!!



Look what's Shaun doing to the daifuku!!!




Oh no! only four left......



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Some pics from last night.
@ IndoChine.

*oPps low quality pics from my non pink handphone...


My Mango Margarita~



My sis's Serena~


P.S: We were not red from the drinking. It's the lighting!!!!

%$&^@#$*^#

wtf. erm, either shann or kar mentioned this to me before. s/he saw my phone in pink!
Pink?!?!?! i've no idea until...

ok.
Look at what panasonic did to me:


It's the new Panasonic Vs2!!!
And it's PINK!!! hot pink!!!

So unfair!

I want a pink phone too!!!! =(


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last night, kar told me he has finally changed his opinion on matters regarding platonic friendship between a girl and a guy. he finally agrees with it now, and sees nothing wrong with a guy and a girl going out together.

today, he's out with three ladies.

hmmm... and i wonder how he managed to change his opinion.

btw, i'm gonna be very busy.
My schedule is packed for next week.
I'll be meeting up with Tom, Dick and Harry!


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oh yes.
I'll be dancing Hip Hop next monday.
yoZ yoZ yoZ! Check it out!!!

yeap shannnnnnnn.... it's confirmed! =)

oH NOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Another shocking news is what i don't need now.


Anyway, i've some questions...

1. What would you do when someone mispronounces a word?

a. Leave him alone. He understands what he's talking about, and you can understand him perfectly fine too. So, what's the big deal?

b. Save him from future embarrassement. Correct him on the spot, but hurt his ego, because he has always thought it was the correct pronunciation, and he has been saying the very wrong word to everyone he knows.



2. What do you do/say to desperate, attention seeking people?



3. What would you do when a friend says something hurtful?

a. Tell it straight to your friend that you're hurt.

b. Keep it to yourself, but secretly curse and swear at your friend.




yea. so how?
I suppose these are things that we encounter very often?

Hello Kitty rocks II

Tadaa~



I've attached my Hello-Kitty-disguised-as-a-Melon handphone chain to my handphone!!! =)

Air flown from Hokkaido.

Courtesy of Shaun.

Please help me, I'm damn broke...

oh gosh. it's only the beginning of the month, and my allowance's more than half gone... AND i've yet to get the pretty watch that i'm eyeing on, and my bus concession for the month, and all the pretty clothes, and the very comfy pair of loafers from Kenneth Cole! I WANT NEED EVERYTHING!!!

So many things to buy, so lil' $$!
HOW?!?!?!

And don't try to get lazy me to find a job! 'Oh, i mean, busy me..

sobsob...


I bumped into an old friend yesterday...
She certainly doesn't look as cheerful as she used to... Her enthusiasm towards life, towards people, just ain't the same anymore... or so i feel. It's been a long time.

I used to be the one contacting everyone, knowing how's everyone doing and stuff, meeting up for a meal or a chat... But not anymore. As everyone moves on and reaches out toward different goals in life, it becomes harder to get everyone together. She's busy, she's busy, she's busy, she's also busy... I've given up. The last time i tried to get everyone together, it was a failure again.

I think i've become a lousy friend. I can't be bothered to call up everyone anymore... Only a few dear friends who appreciate...

Who's my best friend? I don't know. Do i even have one?
How do you define a best friend? This has constantly been an issue for me. And i've been thinking alot about it recently.


It saddens me to realise that while i'm unhappy with life and trudging myself through day by day, time has abandoned me and moved on without any warning. When I finally stop and look back, i realise i've wasted a hell lot of time and i've done a lot of foolish things. (Okay, when i say i've wasted a lot of time, i don't mean shopping, yea.) Alright, without further ado, i think i should go get my things done now!

Hello Kitty rocks!

aah. wanted to post this up long ago, but haven't got the chance to upload the pic.



(oppss. low quality pics from my handphone.. pardon me. )



oh well. anyway, i believe you could still tell how lovely my hello kitty pouch is yea.
wait till you see my sis's decapitated hello kitty pouches! geez not in the gruesome way, of course. absolutely adorable! kawaii ne! and i want to get more hello kitty pouches!!! who cares about LV and prada wallets when i can have lotsa hello kitty pouches?! FYI, i still carry my other hello kitty pouch with me...

hmmmm. should i get a hello kitty bag??? i'm desperately in need of a bag!!!

phew~

i will never do my tutorials ever again!!

sighhhh... Another tiring week has past. Oh, not really.. One more horrible friday to go.. Although there's no school tmr, and i've handed in my assignment, so i don't even have to go all the way back to school just to hand it in, it's still gonna be another horrible friday.. and mr kar's can't even apply leave tmr.. so so sad... =( BUT after tmr... ALL WILL BE OVER!!!! pray hard...

yea... 2nd week of tuts only, and i'm almost dead.

i did my marketing tut, which i took 3 WHOLE BLOODY DAYS to do it and a lil' help from mr kar, and my econometrics tut, which i've totally forgotten all about my stats (HEY!! i'm supposed to be damn good at math!!!), and another microeconomics assignment, the one which is due tmr, but 'coz i DO NOT WANT to go back to school on a friday, i killed more than half of my brain cells just to finish it by today, but in the end i copied from an ex-tutorial mate, and i had FIVE hours of japanese tutorials and a vocab quiz and a lecture quiz and a listening/dictation quiz and a conversation dialogue performance. (opps what a long sentence, so don't expect perfect english up there.. erm.. or even anywhere else...)

uh huh! and why do i not wanna do my tuts ever again???

'Coz last week, i finished all my financial accounting tutorial questions, but in the end! the prof did not even finish discussing ONE qns!!! he only did half of the qns!!! and i missed my bus 'coz i was doing my tut at the busstop.. yep! and needless to say, i was late for sch, AGAIN.. and my mkting tut this week, there were FIVE long qns, which gave me a terrible throbbing headache for days, but in the end! the tutor only assigned ONE qns for my group!!! booooohoooohooooo....... okay, then again, doing my tuts is for my own benefit... anyway, these tuts that i've done, are the ones that i do not need to hand in. AND the ONE tut that i gotta hand in, i did not spend enough time doing it!! hence, i can only copy from the smarter asses...

sighhh... alright. i shall continue doing my tuts. it's a promise. a promise that i've made to so many people. i can only redeem myself this way.

okay, last complaint... biz modules suck big time!!!! the FNA prof is so irritatingly long-winded, and we gonna have a make-up tut on the week before term-break. ON A FRIDAY!!! 1830hrs!!! damn... i've got noooooooooooooo lessons on that day! why can't he spare a thought for me????? and for next thurs' tut, he gotta do his re-service, so there'd be a make-up tut on tues!!! guess what time???? yes! 1830hrs!!! again!!! and next tues is supposed to be my free day!!!!! ah SHIT! i gotta go back on tues for mkting group meeting from 1400-1600. so what am i supposed to do from 1600 to 1830?!?!?!?!??! and on thurs, i'd have an hour break before my 1700-1800 jap tut! can't even go home early!!! F U C K !

ah, but at least there's a good thing for both biz modules, both my tut groups get to do our presentations first. which is a really really good thing, 'coz the topics are still pretty easy... ah ha ha ha. L U C K !

hmmmm... kar says my blog is so boring. there's nothing interesting going on, you see...

i can only go on and on and on about my tuts... 'coz they've taken over my life. i'm still waking up at 0745 to do my tuts. okay, i woke up at 0815 on tues... i'm really tired! i couldn't concentrate at all today. i'm like, very laggy... i can't even take a break in btw lectures and tuts... 'coz i've got so much to do!!!! =( i'm so sad...

hey, but mr kar!!!
HELLO~~~~~
this is MY blog, not yours!!! why can't i say anything i want???? must i blog interesting stuff for you to read?!??!?! do you want me to stun you??? LOL.

sighhh... actually there's so many things going on inside me... things that i don't wanna say it here... 'coz pple i know are reading this. and ya.. i still think that i have the biggest problems in the whole universe... despite the reminder i had stricken out below... i'm not bothering myself with rubbish, just that i do not have any meaningful things to do... so so sad......

sometimes i get so disillusioned with my own blog... 'coz i cannot be true to myself.. i'm tempted to start all over again somewhere else...