my piano

sighhh. yes. i miss my piano!! though haven't been playing any melodious tunes for ages... it seems that after my last piano practical examination, which is like, more than 18 months ago, i lost all confidence. did manage to scrape through the prac, and got a miserable merit. still remember that very day. as soon as i got outta the room, tears started flowing down my cheeks uncontrollably. c'mon, when have i ever cried over a lousy exam? even for my econ papers this time, i did not shed a single tear. anyway, back to That Day. guess i cried 'coz a sudden realization dawned on me -- i'm just not musically inclined... i can't sing. i can't hum the right notes. i can't compose my own melody. i can't play a single tune without looking at the score. yes. what a loser. i vowed never to touch the piano again unless i passed, which i did, fortunately. but the last time i really played the piano, was like four months ago? or more.

wouldn't it be great if you could just express your feelings via the piano? when you're sad. when you're disappointed. when you're angry. when you're happy. when you're in love. and even when you're hungry!!

if you're thinking that, my piano is in my house, and i could just play it anytime, you're wrong. i need courage. i wouldn't want to start playing the piano, and have my sis or bro screaming at me to stop it. that hurts.

okay, i'll try playing the piano again tmr... or when nobody's at home, except dear aunt tessie, 'coz she wouldn't mind me. i miss Mariage d'amour, by Richard Clayderman.

geez. nope. this ain't my piano. just thought it'd be cool to end off with a pic of a grand piano.