what's going on???

Recently, i've developed a fetish of talking to myself..

Not exactly aloud or mumbling. more of like, talking to myself and answering myself all in my head.. call me crazy, call me nuts. 'coz i am. But i believe many of you out there do that too, especially when you've no one to talk to, or there's no one who understands you. somehow, i feel that i'm doing it excessively. And the best time to do it? when i'm taking a bath or sitting on the toilet bowl.. oh, and i realised, i'm usually in a daze when i'm waiting for the bus. that's when my brain takes a break..

so you see.. That's why i blog less often now. 'coz everything i wanna say.... i've said it to myself already. and i'm able to blog now, 'coz i'm in front of the computer when i start talking to myself again. but anyway, who cares what i say????? who listens to me?????

i've also been dreaming alot recently. not as in day-dreaming. and the series of dreams that i had, seem to be linked to one another. Cars and trains appear frequently in my dreams. Big resorts, hotels, and the beach, too. the people in my dreams, some i do recognise, but mostly no. and there's always lotsa pple in my dreams. Being the self-proclaimed dream doc. i am, i can only interpret my dreams as a desire to escape. Ah! Escapism, that's what i need. it just suddenly dawned on me. From what, you may ask. but i..... i've no idea how to say it...

hmmm. anyway, sch has started, and tutorials too.. it's week 3 already, by the way. (shannn!!!! do you know it's another THREE weeks to term break?!?!?!?!?! ) yea, so i've managed to get an alternate - 3-day/4-day - week. that's not too bad, considering i was prepared for a 4-day week already. Btw shannn, don't worry too much about your tutorials. Trust me, you'll get used to it soon. You just have to learn to speak up, or you won't enjoy tuts at all. Don't be shy, girl. I was rather apprehensive when i just started last year too. moreover, i'm not the kinda outspoken person too. Just understand your readings and stuff, and you'll be able to participate in tutorial discussions without feeling afraid of saying the wrong things. For the going-to-tutorials-alone part, well, i've been doing that for one whole year already, and i'm still alive! in fact, it's easier to make friends this way, rather than sticking to the only person you know. Just go for your tutorial, look for people who are alone too, and start talking to them. Oh, and i realise that sitting right in front of the class is not a bad thing afterall for people like me. 'coz that way, you'll be able to participate in the discussions without bothering how other people look at you. but then again, that'd have to depend on the sitting arrangement..

sighhh. shann and i didn't get into floorball. does that mean i'm fated to be cca-less in my whole life???? okay, just exaggerating..

i just went to cut my hair... it's so DAMN SHORT now!!!!! erm, once again, i did the multi-layers kinda hairdo. so, the back's long, the top's short, and the sides are short too.. how do i look?? i'm not interested to photowhore.. and i think wearing a hair band makes me look a teeny weeny bit nicer. 'coz the sides aren't there to curl anymore! Kar says he's gonna sponsor 40bucks! hope it's not just another empty promise...

alright, i'm hungry. SO, i shall stop talking to myself for now.

i still have alot more to say, actually..